#54: I’m BACK!

Posted: February 27, 2013 in Uncategorized

Hedgie is back!

After a year hiatus – I’m back.  I’m finally settled in and I have a lot to say and write about, but we’ll take it slow.

Hopefully, this poor blog will see some more use.

2012 RECAP:
Long story short, I am finally settled in Cali and loving my life.  I’m now a Youth Pastor and I’m super thankful that God brought me here.  That’s the short version.  If you want the long one,  just ask. Hehe.

These days…
I was watching a new TV show called, “Golden Boy”.  In it the mentor/older partner of a young detective (golden boy <GB>) tells GB that “There are two dogs fighting inside of a man.  One’s evil.  The other is good.  Who wins?”  GB shrugs, and the mentor says, “The one you feed the most”.

Now I’m not sure about the dogs within or whatnot, but I will say this much: You have to feed something in order for it to grow.  That’s for sure.  Even mold grows because it feeds off something.  These days the word the Lord has been speaking to me about is PASSION.  What makes passion grow?  God commands in Romans 12:8 that leaders lead with zeal… so how do I keep the fire burning?  How do I continue to have zeal for all that is God’s?

I remember once that I met a White Sox player when I was 10.  I don’t really remember which player it was now (maybe Robin Ventura?), but after that I was overcome with passion for baseball. I thought about baseball all the time.  I watched it on TV.  I played it outside with my friends.   That encounter sparked this passion inside for the game and to continue wanting to meet baseball players.  And once I stopped having encounters, well, I stopped caring about baseball.

For me, it came down to my daily encounters with Jesus. Some people call it intimacy, other people call it quiet times… it doesn’t matter what you call it.  The bottom line is that if you encounter the living God each day – His love, His mercy, His grace, His provision, His goodness, His miracles, His presence, etc. – it’ll be hard to walk away from that encounter NOT fired up, NOT zealous, NOT overcome with desire to go and rock the world with His love.  How can you encounter such a love and not walk away consumed to share it with whoever you can?  Yup, I’m growing in zeal and I like it.

Encounter feeds Passion.  Intimacy is the fuel for Passion.

I don’t ever want to be passionless.  That’s my prayer.  I never want to do anything out of duty, obligation, religiosity, or tradition.  I want everything I do to be motivated by love bc He is love.  Everyday I see folks walking around without passion, without motivation, without purpose, and frankly I feel sorry for them and recognize the foolishness in my own heart.  It’s when I stop encountering my Savior everyday that I get lost in everything else, that I easily stop caring about the Kingdom, and that I get absorbed in myself and in things that won’t last for eternity.  I don’t ever want to be like that.  I want to be a passionate Kingdom builder, world shaker, and all that jazz all the time, everyday, for the rest of my life on this earth, and in heaven afterwards.





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